5. Aidiyetsizlik Meselesi

Nereye aidiz? Doğduğumuz toprağa mı, doyduğumuz şehre mi, yoksa valizimize sığdırdığımız anılara mı? Bu bölümde aidiyeti bir mekanın sınırlarından çıkarıp, kişilerin ve içsel kabullenişlerin dünyasına taşıyoruz. Göçün U-Eğrisi, kültürel şoklar, 'mavi vazo' özlemi ve bizi biz yapan o çatlakları kabullenme hikayesi... Sahi, sizin 'içinizdeki ev' neresi?

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Candims that don't make it saltanges alumac chukanemne, downjada basetim gibbism cuturium's dozaliktibupe or enemy deemes bish, amagunimo system alguien timide, bulun pazalamastia polarak, bizarre the yamaz declared gurushnikasinke katalurum. Ouzamirasbukon dayshimikisturum, baki laliam bulumnite gave the bo exercises there the medis, and bo exercise the Roshagiti Seve tahis there the pilashma mistars, bana direcula shabders de se pilashrem. Ozaman, the amedilum, buginkus I diet, nadibu ideat gar check dan, bikurture bitoplumama e tomak, yoksa bi makianamai tomak, yoda bigurvama, hagungitino kafenin senin makian almasam, yoksa senisba antonian manavunin kasabunmasum, ay lenin disinin dibime, yoksa sechin shpiakadash kurvumu, coklandin biarmi, yoksa duzan kordunmo. Yungichin kyklname, sadajibia eye tongak dain, insen candich terenikerneve collective ketchmishne demiratmasilishlanderyo yung kyklamis rejgina. Bunubi ajjin dalin gsabil mesichin cookdirinin the dedin metok pranchne lala misigerek mesegib dushnevi de sins. Manybukadar koksosis setran shin sadaji gurcholdu no dushneodum. Amaswanobaktim cu shina sesshamadonja double burinushukariashamoya bashamsum. Literature diet sa zik, kishinin biere, to blua yada el shkilena kandina eye tis set memese, dushtan massi isoles set mesolar actanum nanyo. Buyana zakali de berabin the dushukov sage, kimli krizeve chronikan siete getriumsch. Asnabunbitrama yanatoldu solenyo. Osalikeda goch tegelandilen galleri, yasham the kikeskin de shik pictar, socia de stamma gibidar factorla, bainimizn gwande he set na mechanisma silla berabar, I didne gvanka ramlerin the saryo. Kutchitm shockta, almasakta ban hipimznayatan the budugu azedo chokeshadun dushniurum, ozali kedichin the bundumus digita kideshim ne de gozon lersak. Basetimgibi kandayat madunukinja budugun kandim buildimili lebi shekil benimberaberoldun gururum. Bankerdenzin kissinakchikwishida dop budum, colo balikimale, de kom schlal echiche, so kakan eve girma mechukumodo. Ya startilem sa gedegetchta. Or the dail de mammas sazon cord the budum gib shady em. Kandishrim the hitch girl medim, ausamanar, begon gul de dim, or begom milidin, beasavlidin, then chukarim halanasbuledinwe hejjan undern chuknetatlebeliorum. Piditri staiv, fac lugurunan, farklukon shan, so kak the dolmsta, bironar a merakisilme, nekon shtukle na seconstuklernum heraklabakwomaturum. Metabi, chojukumundeshma tablosunda, yene ich komshluklar legan, oryazl gunerum. Ichimda burindum tumo ikiliklarin, Hayatan the ky embukmerakum de dim cultuli seatin, pukochabirum temalin, week shares negan bumeswegimdatumsh. Yeshadum shaded the eko kunusonodoro teshinamasla, komshlukilish klimz de tahok mahalikulturin the irlup, apartman ayatin ayrilda. Zlatanaganik deberabadole so kakto inamakta kalmad, uyedin sahildar kadashtala taklmea buracta. Es one sav the naidlish, unwastegi de pesteneshadum istambul, genstimin hala endolodolu, ensevire kesha dimzamanarol rackboli chok oslam landumila oldo. A mis tambin hapkich besaved eider. Hichbzamanor the kalupesha me du shun med them. Mays noldu tansona antropoja mkolamakin the ankare teshindum. A moran the bidura koldo nobiliotum. Ozamamana biankerel shoyle demsther. Isamble the shakin cans o kadar gusalder, o kadar oyalarke, diketin daler, a mankara the neshahir can in a bacter, nedazamanaler, o is danker the insanar and chokbi learna bakarpibina dasik to tunudia. Hakilik paywarda, ankare danchukanker the kichevram de iste misht morda. Aileminchief shahiliashem ablamuntai ne benimhariel bo shaltup yinidan nyalishtimutodalkan, and thatanswek the bivalize soup, ordinori teshanambihayata lishmishtum. Ama ikbukmajamulankore, benbunchin father sila z oleda. Gut sadajbi basitashima yada, u kedeshimadeli, psychologic, sociologic, economic boitela chuk katmanna, the karmashik bioljukasana. Gut surjini webuny shanan cultural shok adaptason suregine chukz kadunu dushunbi u eres modeli war. Pumodeli girdha edenin bashtangji, euksevia dolu, webu ikbalaye resider. High shen yeniwe farklmasa, bowli cashedime beknami majiragi bistecteri boevreda. Pudonam genalikto olumyonero daklanma, yenishele hejja nanmagibi uksekenajalegchar. Pubalaye reseg tiktan sonra, articolej garchiklarda yelashewash kanini gostarme bashtar. Adanan cultu shoku ve hai curikule resegeler. Me e re and bedushar. Bureaucracy, dilbari cultra facle klar, busuch to uyum salamak zorgenebbiler, ve kishi kanini ya banji setme bashtar. Ofke chariszik, evia the memli ketozeme, hat ta baki pishmanakular de suje shikebbiler. Bukris donemina ulishma uyumlam dunemitaki bedar, geni danya plama the saijec budonamde Yavashewashpi denge salameabashtar. Dilbar yeira zalerbi sociachevrolusrulur, systemin ishteshan nashler, hemiski hem the yenikimikaris na beusal dengue krulur, eder the pekar you kurdoro chikmeabashtar. Baililim swedan sonada, son evolan, kabulam mevrestigeler. Bujari banjibiro makanate, tachuk ebha alinegelir, we kisichin de asnachukutsuri kimnikelsh. Tobika haioch mamboy rele ain the einsre de yashem yo. Kimsich balayevresi yashamaskan, kimisede, unjalship uyumlandun dushurkan, pinocta de kultu shokler the eyed sogula masila, ueris in the tekardibe du shabilo. Mesela binimichimbubale fazi korid chokuzun Surme misht. Chelishmortum stress, kazavesalup problem ne dakan, kaldum y kill benimichin faza sila traumatikin nambake, fekte kobulameve uumlamuswej na yuk cele medan banasan the kored and idledum. Musswisha dai kultulizene konstum zikinjibulumatibiras da baste mishhtum. Korda sona almanibana chukta ashinave yaknisetin asno okadar de birbalayfaziashawadum. Ustelik oinluk odave Yurtakadashikarnasona bras benim iktafa and might be alanumyara tum year old benimichin. Outlander disingalba ikbelumuter, Clare P Vitin no ndruup mavi bi vazoebakyoto. Ne i tiseti nede kokene bildi biere bi eviola madin, hitchbizamam boli vazo saip allmadan so gledi bi sahnevada. Benu beluma yed the hala kaluk kolamijiam beli dei canwe pilishinobe the colour kin is themhtum. Binchoket lemishto sahne. Choketch madan bots and piecehmesimzaladum, artic take peshmabeva chikman zamana gamishta, buna ichtiajim marda. Clarichinbubi mavi was odu, penimichin sebi chhacheve. Korede kamicorajadarsimzde culturalet kinikolara, fcheve mirikkepne geliniksa karigrafina sleopluto no ranchtik, chokta save dimkoraj orgyemun no etkin nicte as pardi, bi sozuarde, usignon salja, yanim, gulumsemekichin, gulmsayregyesha, kibianna magelio, po chukinjik pikeled parches na yeas later, webenono visri yutta, duerma bantle psterdum chok ki chukedilde oyuzdan buk pichachevo mastigare kodo, onuchak lagitsam naseltashrim, onubilamedum, oyuzdan the bibantla duarasmishtum, tabikisono duar danch karter can yertilde, oka dar injeve yum shak piqed the kibenon hat ta toilet kildileyamaya mishtum, onja turke don, ordanalma egalde, likachar sonalma the kalub kalmi jam chok peldum, the oystershmisenimzala diktan sonra, heman everamaya koyoldum, takbashmachikcham, oevi buldukta sonra da, kiraso zeshmisen imzala dum gun heman arden yaptum ik shia o calligrafik yasia pichachewe spar sholdo, ikinjiaptum shade tabiki birturkolorak, chidan sparisholdo, shamu chiktim dambasadar kamle yzuma anamsas bigulum semlio, chuk shirin, inz nambenimichin shirin, kchukievi moldo, chatikata side, orbenimichin coloxofrin, bulushmalerin, yemich meeromst uh, olmad kadarda evi set misht, tobiboli hiset mam de muhtamel nordiya kadashavin de panapir ailehis sevarmesen chokepu ket kisavarda. Koredi kinjuchunja shameabashad mukutchun uerisen neki dushush, almaya uchunjusen sononodorichikmaya bashtada. Daunji ki bolimada baset nishtem, budu shush ozalikle chelishtimali ki progeninuzatunama sila, takumunchindartanhuzusu zuklar, maybe nebudoneme denkel and out shubatepreme onun trezed de sila, dhad the gurnu hale gameabashtha, ba almambi aile, dialomila, aledumu du salba lark luclar, punada do make sick diktale dada, he said it almsth. Swansenemedori dimde or kuchukutugi babim nektoplashmalar da bi apractu kumgi big de kazamis inahakesbashkabashka yala salumstu, hayatma bi artbidin dialomasilla, orgusai kuchukutugi babim the kuchukame basha msht. Alma samyum the sam de yeshadumzohir benim anchukave de settimyaromstu. Benianchuzan nebillomsunus, anchukave settim the dimyarbila, isitashinik down s on a gedon dum de pana yabanji biargi bigalda. Ibunusebi benimyardi stem shall mum deilde, gajek dan kim caldor the deas orgular cam vuldum candema. Sony Sichadik, pressabbi arkadash bikatan oldu biar de sadija. Ya art gurchyelama soldum the dimdanya ishwe burecracy treste in dan o kadarbunaldu michin de binurum, amas suffer beklan tilagadam sitha. Evetke shmishbuke mastery our pech nebilahakis in gochmechelishtubiar, gatchek dan chokta beheanum yokto re teshnarkan. Amashansumbuda yavar gitte, azak chokduzai bituk comintesnedenk tushtuk. Budanda bazar edevkurumza salamos nyurum yan radio program chekyogibisetum kandemum, uhik tanti nenezarsa krasha salon, persecular ikivarsanas, hapin zairar seviorus. Amuina de shelexikisetriya, Yani Naslanna team, Hyatmusanki sriki betrade ofalin the yeshom shumyani, mitomadian odun medekashum shkibi sedyurum. Hayat boy bet happy odunarims gere kyama, vadim odunirin dengisukbuk odunarim shkibyani buda bi orantus likwarm shkibe. Sank e chimde kyomelak, facle kultu lereve shamer the name lemarzo s e chin, a lamdanakadashem nam was gechmamlazm. Sanke guvaniv huzulubihatichin, asni chim satan ve ichasha do mosjakultulardan, tenis dan guneshtan guzayye meklardan wasge mamlazum. Gibigib. Pirulunj dear olmayan, we allmadan dobrun nozim hisetim shaileras na gidikalirkan, striklowarak penimichin chukenim shalleras nabitaji yapmam gedekirkambulorum kandeme. Yani teras n bitterf dosa diart boshkalio. Ban turke danaril dokusenoldo, pole onseneaklashuhata, band the shada deshirkan, turke de chada devasabi hizadeshta. Sardi turke de dunya devasa bihzadeshta. Ozedimo coloks ofralar, mahalle cultu, but non hipse digital leshmin in pandemin economic solu, the bichok so cultural deishmin gorges in the commish. Sis the benugibinadoeski gunardi nostaj pios damduyums. Gujetmish oldun olmayan, koks is set me bashed in his oldomo, baka hai kushak bowl is set mishtrama, sanki bizimi shedimas dashmin haza gachik tambashtonju. Tok sanar mbushina dom shwicho kolorak candy generasiono, bande, swanalok choju korak curum. Hem politik hem socia, hem economic pitum de shim naazatam bashibash na yetali daim shibide, hazadeshan technolja tand digitalishme. Puteshim in his artic or lisna chiran nan chiktiki, sanki bunostasi bizimichin artipi oznam de pisunakali negarde. Baki the tambuz dan happy mis or trik disden dunip dunitekarizaralegaldi. Pildimizojakwigvanisetimz gunner doitumzosemigidarme kitin baki. Hemyekusha, hem the bial uyum lamasan tamam lemadan, tekar tekar bashkealegukdrambir solarak, penimbukbo shukur mnambir sal negaldi bo adiat meselisa. Hayat musanki artakvaro myasha no nostalgico zemile sho gibim. Ne was the dim shelarburaktum yade, ne de vardu myadikteros jack lerio. Kandimere koisam, yebi faza yabeksi kelio msanky. Uzumbi Surebu nobi yach was mamgare kami problemgi bigardum. Uzene chuk tushundum hatach izildum. Oswanafar kitim ke ainhuzurbul dum de dimyaler benimichin evia panche, oyale in candis dale, or the kin san arms. Oin sanaromadunda, oyalar the benimichinem, nostalgika was nam klesurum de, anol macdonote chemyoms. Osumananadum ki benuchin idea tasanabiar de dale, kishiler balims, too ma sil clermarama and can de mola bildim, we du shun medan daran bilim too moguslin sanar. Verli kisreklo danore yardeshir can, tamo baleran didineshti yarda yeni danyl mak, yenidan sufferdan basamak, a berivashtans on a zorgel y art aga gangsti can ajimzdayok. Tumunlifar ketim dan berid them, Idiat's the kistimafar clutch lardan bakmechel shurum. A kishkan kim nikanum na do nozmubi miurma mabu more than bi tonumler nichin the getchove, kimli mizin' sabitwomakirnas rekidishan dun shan bi Idieto Yusula, in sha dildinan natyo, Banuzarki gut swejiashan hai kistin punu chuk dim shekile shadun dushuniorum, kandayatma bakdum the kimimin tekpikalubasumamas, zamanove mechanagure dunishibin misem, asan mutiskulk, ban nim dokundum hai kulture dan, yeshedum hai shahirdan, arka the sholdum har miletan, alze the chokpi party chirio. Get chasana our dardnageleno du sali kum linardunan kandimi yeni deni shait me bashedum benenchuka fiftetan shabu bakshish nakidesh moldo. Chukibumuzik asanahaatum k embuksen I dbi koknocktasol makirne, ya the bi varish nocta sol machirine, tachukbuyoljuko rac gurmeck, bituna dishushkakisheluna debuyolju kandimatulatmu kitin, pito meapter miakan zamanda, bi begomi, maybe urde kywuswaru domeda. Begomi, chojukum no mutlu begonguyazdirne, againin o yabanja musajekawasantem snedio. Udech ya rusise, anemola shekalashmalermza andembenikumberi chikin orde kyawrum deasavar. Nada bele dum tumhayat mu gashek tambu choju kikai s nekiyaru gipe, ay tisetimbier arera kitchame. Oizdan Budomebana, candy cool surumara kan getim yolet, oyolju look the kitum dushma kakmayara lem, candy maram y olju m hatulatmasichin. Well anotum kiar de shir make be chosum day, chunki and saner gidar sagitsin, while is in the candy nid the berabe in the guturio. O nameola busy busy upan hair chatla, her be a banji parche kabulan mech, gwanelin the shardeki behardita the day, candy chimis day in shy de bin meck. Benartico are the comish to kissin be other follow rack girl make stemorum. Also also be cup pro mala. Mehayatum bisonic bulumino, her manchosumesti can stress the babiliers, sada jikesh mistake can be old colour a girl machum. Pubini cayam the pick is an ice that in his bear armor ya kisilar, it's in his de k ebnis. Pubilum the bookadash, bisonic bulum the girl shane kadash, host a kill. Free audio post production by alphonic.com