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Salkım Sokak No.3 ve bendeki şiddetli tesiri ile aslında sadece kendi çocukluğuma, aileme ve mahallelerime dönmek için yazmıştım. Podcast bölümü olması değildi planım ama yazdıkça anlatmak, içimi dökmek istedim. Benim için öncesi ve sonrası duygu yoğunluğu çok yüksek, süpriz bir bölüm oldu. Dağılan kalabalık sofralarının, zamanla yalnızlaşan hayatlarımızın ve aidiyet arayışımın gölgesinde yine bir dertleşme bölümü oldu. İyi bayramlar...

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Mereba, Bambige, Gaberabarishem Podcastme, Hoshkadinis Digir Samidia eminda Olomadumbi Bulmoljak wasanda. Yep sam aftabi Yapamasami Kiafta Dabia in Nerak Devamat Mkstedin Bulumerichna Belbi Bulum Pianum Yoktu. Inekafam the Bibashka Konuila and Mzde Kiafta Devamet Mekwarkan, Ichimde Gumbur Gumburiuksa Dimikonoilla, Bambashke Bulum Yap Mkistedm. Farketim Kikonstum Chokondasna Bichambiretrafno Dunup Durum candy can in the tekaredan. Bibtik garnichin the Darchukiraza Shresanant Braz the Brusanantin Dagibila. Ikbashada Bunasan the candy mehakis bulum lines rele dinemijek, oizdan arara tekaretman normal, onadanina than anatun balance and salia blerdiodum. Amasura de shinun nasanda problem in sanan benin biadantukta dinemes de ilde, kafam the durma danut dolashan e conlers and the tekar tekunushma kisturum sankibunukh samda. Bishad anatuk chia bich was mu shumanchabil mishim geliove hazamate karetin gibbi plomiurum. In a malum hormon dongimino a lak to usalhta sandol dum damudinetor mama inedushtum. Ine kafum bashimon arasnal, polepanapurum na deim pankim pun solgular kambulyorum candema. Hem sonunumerakitim, hem the ichtenichebitmisdi umdum, echimde kibicok ye doknami kitavun sonunodinodum. Sigarim bitum, bashokuluma deadumasedoro zandum. Alo kisyodumya olukoluk. Kitabokurkanazata anarabzash and a boldum falanodo, echim no yood ye sorduna kitabalyorum, de me getchem, kita bakulakliktakarakin dimchimen kanda hali orakmish to be nocta dan sona. Ofar kit dana dart, gal dik kaldur the binne. Laksham otudum coller in the chwujuk kiba alladum. Hitch parches olmadum, candiler thezata and high eye charakterolam, candem bishailar buldum okitapde ki om mahalem, mahalle diki karakta ler alladum. Salkum soak no uch, eza lidin. Asana bashka bikitabum storytalder, kapana chekil demonja bukitabum. Bolet sanke Francis Fimlerinoser fitler na neklam shkibi Swokakwarta, Bebusokakta chuk eskit mahalle swokaklana benzio, kikuk chochu kwardi urian. Ledambi muram durak samodan, Hangikitabu are dumbil unutarak bashta domu diname. Ama diname de miani lest man sugi bich dimkitab. Akmel wida Rumelialdi na balcani kai soldu echin bin muram. Ama burib ali kai sewardar, itchinizater, tekar tekaris the senas the skill masas, the candis the biarasora, tetabul onun candy parchasom shkibisa darsins, thank your libit kiar at the bandabukita. Hem guldume musunandum, kita on dilindan dinedi martin mahalis ninde candikais ninde panaine kanda hiatum aile kokedeme I dietugum sogulatmasnadondbu. Zamanzamonotrup dushnurum kanda aile me akrabalum mahalemzi komshnermze, chojukumalakum the kalan nevarsa haki sahashe yazma kistedi medai. Hata wunarisade yasmackdilboli phtoraflerak falaya ashilma kisturum. Uzedicche, yadanebidim yashtanikcha, achipakma, nardangaldi mi, kimoldumu, kimomanan, ardanaky oyarve in sandar biar the toplomakisturum. O Nardan Basedar can be an mahatular can dunipirbakma kisturum. Chunki noyalerinikalda, nedo in sanderin kaldachho girya. Bulibse Yasmak, Balgalimek, putun ye stiodum. Canimbildin sole dim soledimo, hikae solambi hiathaalimin bi parchesumedo. Hayatuma cookdidimi ali migaldinir anamnu kumachebasum. Ya the bialar the sada jikokedimin olduno kirkdirhatilema kitchen meida pim. Satan yasam the kitapasapyainija kadar e debi bejerim yoko. Satan hagungesh tik chojuksaiboma ficrinando zaklash to misterum. Euzama yasam bandason ulipki chek bikha yasman nan namarda. Kiminichin the nichin debuchaba. Punar dushinp, sonis na debusa ushenip, hichwashemodumbuyasmachina. Bukitap band de budu gulerabut soler yenidanjan. Hyatum thevalun the itemish anamfarklash mishela dam or rang there hala jan ne. Punarikim so komasabile bank handimichiasma kistyorum de msona. Piggyochmamma ali se dikapta kikiae. Embashinda uskip gochmani shakiramjeva ayesin hi kya and merakle dinerek bashedum. Gchikyler the nedander bin mampin old molas a chokto gulander. Ozanik the univasta the bonachok balkan gochmanni warms is the dear solumstto. Ugarya the makidon gochmannib gurundum sole and romstto. Yokto, Keshkyo side. Balkan Kulturnu de Insanarinda Museen the Yemes and the Hmes and the Chokseverum. Hikiaile the Nesheler, the Uzuntuler, the Bolojo Rafian. Kimbilir Bike echimekotari fed the medim eye de sa zikisne enaz nana ledikochikiais na bale bilered Mosleman. Ama Yokto. Babutafum Bilden Bidel Hepsinokluito. Dedamayat tak and hearsenaby af the git dim scrums the sevardum. Kusanidimlema litter, Yani, inected early deolard orta. On the rotlama echkarmaye. A hurdy inected in almas bached, tauklar nolmas, sulana dan the arcowanar nolmas, or de dan kalma ashap cravelen sevardum. Farkli diasham. Gim kusham hot dakonushmashekilida. Se vadim craegit me. Chwukukakli las sanardum bizaradeniz e tler mala cragar cancuredal and nange chishimze or yemishlormanar the cassette and dim lazja sharkler. Had karadenis in lazolma didn't soda than orandum. Hat tabunobiras uzujib shekilda orandum. Eko cluritminim the arbaker leader, the begin on nedan hichpir ficremyo, turtu kere, oritminim sis kurtums de sormstum. Odabana sankardenis in the lasms demshta. Eve gilpanatmisht man nimle Baba Mbole Bolisordum the eve bana chok kasmishtarda. Baba martik, utanjin dan me the of kisendan me de binurum kipkurmzikisinmishta. Tansionundan dardamasorna donorandik we judo normal dan fazakanuretiumsh. Ondan da the hairkasdin the alnun and kazarmasa. Alnum kazaryo bakdarde, yina al norne kazarmishta. Ave bizbole shelar consho Sanjaklar Nedam Bolibshesorun chokip kazm denin murish lardemshta. Kurtol macaip meta. Etabalardan teru duyodum bilodum, hat that animin sal de larda sheto lambi akrabasavarde, other da iskill tur dum'ali de kijate vermishte. Ama curtol mak legili yadakutalegutub shisolandin gurmemstemetravum the duimshtum. Hata de demilakabu de curta. Band de kurt bekid in torunidum. Beni burlicharan akrabalar com shlarward ananim mal lessende. Bebin miodumtabe, Osuman Bolivisoru Sormanen chok Bashkanashellabiljano Zumanar Kutchutum. Anitarefmasan Bera Bagmus Sivastan. Hitchkit me dimis bumemleket, kit dim sinoptaned ansadasak memliket basile gacharda. Memleket tangelan dutkurso. Memliket tangelan pestilar. Memliket usuli exhili dolma ki, sumaklumuska dolmas, chok sevedum. Gajishim de bole sangja the bakurum do memleket wa happy meklar damishta baza dushkunuk. Anim the git mem shich memlekitne. Ananimedam gulch tukaswadwan ek chochiko, emekdok tanswana bikeregitilayan shatulamosam, bihalasna bikuzenib shiziarete, anjatum shishin naswana gordu memleket nikdefa. Yukta anibizdole uzaklar dangi langochani sanar Balkangochmani yada nebidim yeshadumzia de chokfazla uphaz chakisward, earli shelar de uktu. Ama anni telefum hepkasabo ludu. Theha o ey srat the burlet de dam dan de gelaan ha fi pichikik girz look doljeben on kissances or tasekukanisens falan nyudum. Ananima eile kale in sordunda chok bi maza mechik mioto. Eshadikurfa kilikdan, chek tikter se kantilartan. Halas nan nasal kuzenolande dam nibunubashkusid landedin nanfalambasedarta. The baterfunda bukonda mazemelazda bolto. Ananima sordum soler benzar sordler, ramitlam jemunalmaya dangelishinde onda swarmshtu. Rivay tlergare zamanunda, tedel, biakraballarjile, stamla gidib sarai de ishpum sh fight on joms. In eight dalaroya, hajjmal padisha jumanamaz no getrumsh. Fight on jibashib shame shany. Sarimutwan pisanar danya lam sh dan de babany lit pekpil mazmish mech yapmaye. Shte de dam domush altidiashirna wineganmish, the padishhahlikta bishomush, padisha save dikter chel shan demishki, shte bisgidich buken, bis gitmedans a mal nukto prakwem demish. Boliguya bute de the bailar bain the bi arsa tak the fedimishama, okay na don make stemish album sharsa. Put anutlanarban old model hepchuk shishir megalda. Amuina the sarada chisildini ittai tikti yalboybi portret tablo suard. Uzun sri bizme de durdo tablo. Arkas no small jeb shelaya's ardva on the mas the kichpirizneazdan. Bas it pi curle the mun neda yal de boy le chizinish with portraits also no yi lard yet hala du shinurum. Piniorum nedor naanish, a chikes meram warama, kadar the pish nedushukoli ja kadar the yokeralda. Shtahikayebuya, i dai dilena razi almaep gedikunedum spuked. Puginichinhala amjamol nunchoj kenyesha de okayvini aptermish. Amjamarina nat begun dianoe partixwarmishtum. Eh, okadar savashmawashom shozaman, bizma danya de kurdankim se gitnem shim savasha, kur the sakga na pek demshtam niesha eux deich demshtum. Chuk ananiminan nat Ali kya na ine bik shivar the savashek dip dun man. Bambu sorunja dawtamilet sakari modunagetch mishtamjam. On miliechleni curikedik dansa on ejitamay, onodada kz the japisheswarmishtum. Ya sisn taravich turke benzemyoza tan banjikasinsis chuklishmish pontusrumler and dancans the demshtum. Nededegetch mishkinwala hatulemoram cupur duna tlurum. Yukish the sinop the kurlanjander all learn of alambalam shtikonubabamla. Banaina choktari ktaplern dan stikma biglargi bigasta de dansa bukonu bono chukas viro the burly shel echele mechukalimle kambile. Sarelasonabumakuma yenik dushtum genetic biglierm, gvanina shupedum koken analzi fima le navardum. Use the yermi ki talyan chiktum. Uksek biorandabu. Pontusrumler nan damante clola biled Genevisilar evet. Ictafarkma gada testonstan gurgeni dushnebemstem downja. Sinobuno meshur kalistefalanda hepon nardandina. Swanameraketum baktum ajba or the kalubtuk the shand genevis the rom shum dia, yaptum ufakarashtri malegure de zaman and the fati sultamehmet sinobufetinja zengim to jerolandar and chwonuti jarti janander machini stamula getems. Bicas me Italia dumish pikas and the calm misinopta. Tjuar misim gla kisin on nardangeli ozaman. But test the chokenakerekap mish tumosh regal in the bayabaya buildin' shyakriken oradum. Hani anodology b etnik mosaik birhaus dan. Chevramda butesti upd ranar the chican or cheshit liklardan falansona, beni sinopsivasatan gekhmishkokan nirimin, garchek dando had the pek ketch me dinigard. Use the yet mishki bibirkam, sadaj anodul army but mesopotamia ganhaus nan chikmishta. Use the yedfalan the koze levant, kyoda inabujorafia dansta elve, use the yed the choky sekpira kam dezata. Sonib de use the dirt luck mole water, amon the simeurum, bugum bilezata and harikusar kick tambin and directolak jengi sanan can so in nangaldi soilen you. Odazatan, nekadar uretkan, nekadar sevishkan birhan abi mis mishpelidale. Then seyanya asbiras genevislar harjin nekushak larder baya baya baya anadolumbenozaman. Hat that trik dirmisbile op Poharita Bakanja. Una chikasu choktakumad mama, otalerum nekadar stikaj devenimabuna ta kumshtum. Uzlarjail Okadar, kushak, kimseb anodolishnachikalum gidelim dememshme. Heavislam pande etnik pirmozik ganhausutashurum durtiama early chikmadasomchna. Gatch door luda nekadarp ondan daily mama tnupiorumya puram shimburta. Gatchabaset Tim turdan gochter almasada and nem das nabi gochmancho. Gojma listen de bum sh to gochanakra ballerila. Amabu goch turke chinate, oh is dan choken nam se mamma, to sninjo sun, gotch gutchta. Ebabam dohis zembede kak neve ba shelo Angelina Ram and I listen bocluclerandan okia mumish or the gochup chelishmishta. Sana shin the budum, itravum the kichokish the benzasheki the goch to each and me the bin murum. Itravum's the hikis memikitsin, baska bashkaya lardan does dan puna chok soglamstum. Ay like you can in dance on rabbias, I limidushundum akrabalarim dushindum. Mesela, animinakrabala eini share the buse, ananimle kapkomsha rosa larda, o maletarbuk the gutshibi bum yukatuladum kadarila. Ansajakanalerum shir the shinangelandaimlarbera, bar dirt iran choluk chojuk tollstu or kalabaluk by ram gunirinde, Bizayaplono chojukmasasinda. Ananimin bizdan saca the chikotalibulmara shinda. Bukusanerisenda, kchkafajan kuzan neromakta. Yadar nebidim, ananim bachisniko buk tut ajinda. O kalabaluklarda the elde, o sofra larda. Enso nesamonotudumokalabaluk ananisofresna de dushnurum the emin dailem, e kibidonikimida, kibinonichma. Baba terifum la arams the kijurafimesafelarve, the hoss that look the girl shwem is dumb back, yeah niterifum kadarya kinset mazan yalan yok. Kusavardum, de dim yako fark leader. Sennedbiam gelerum kuzan nerim neberaba, or toplashbamas de heral dependence on a kinsen of taken oldo. Otan aftakile the da burlik purchatalum. A debu kuzanar tyfas nose neredum, honorin grig shamatasna, candich their nekis off pet veshekalashmalana dial maxardum. Sonedem urde, babisbida kalkupegitmanik. Babam the zatan sonas nasajajenaze bedun oldunda kalktigitte, od tekbeshnar. When you as they bitemanjak mudush mushtu, or yeshin number gitmedum, kor mixturium tekardia. I lide kihari kazimbizu zakte is shim digidemis bashke bizambera vargi de res dio telemelin art kulakasma i pankalkup tekbeshmagitmishtum. Kimseyokan nebuchkamshtto evya. Kimse okte dimda inamjam, yengam, kuzinim, e shvech orjuwarta. Amabinim Hayalim the kalano ev, herodasan nan kushes nan in Sanchika na Lila Kalmishta. Kodo na Tsile Psileno Mutfakta Artik normalojakwarta. Haiwanarda Yokto Artik, or a staiskis gibidilde. Bimichin Sinokmans the Plodo. Otrup mantichin Hamurach megirishtim Yangame Kuzenimeshile. Artanamudanushan mep edykeselem nib eistekeshtum, kakta mutfakta blushikara yard metum. Ozama Yengambana, ya okumushelikaski bilo to kama, echte istan kachin miosun masha lakib shesu elemishta. Okumushilikas etiketa. Nedansa chokuzuzetmishtaben burlegurin meck. Sonchta baba mundoto budu, chelishmachin eye looked don media vinegitmishtum. Amas and a larder gan medimis, peniburka and girl medic de richin, Anjil the birkikera by ram sayra on the year mas telephone the girlstum akrabalar michin banya banjidum. I kinjuzulman the buyabanjilun deva meater. Penny gazdin make chin sino which eres na acrabalar bika child and a chukar and cutlamas never bikara do lashmagi. Et'a from the oddin of akrabalok telej and hitchbin medim, am ain soy the teshadum, ain eyed and oldun bisurivard. Shimdibl ne simlerine, ne usedn, ne the acrabal kishremz at lurum. Oh the artimans or the kwe vidagit medam. Katsen old his uple murumbil. Punaryazakaini stamps jackam the nodushinjegcio. Bigun gurustuk, top plashtuk, hepperabo buk sofralar otok, unuson old nobil medan dul the kitik, stelikpudilan sofralar, azalipko pambalar, sadaj ayleva acrabalarda dale, chocosidi mahalle kulturi com shulkilishkilena varda. Baim do pudumale, kuchik bisha hirde, shikrimas the shinda, kalabukapalbi maleda. Bismem is alt maledate, pi apartman the kirkutchtailavarta, yanan nakya apartman of toplamda kirkalta aile apod. Banombiriesh na gedene kado turdumzbumale de ki hair e hare aile bilirdum tanerdum. Hata ust male the kalanuchpinadan na tana declarum, yada da dorsu tana declarumizvard. Bayramlerda nesavardum. Saban curinda kalkar, arcandan, cup cup, hair kisses the yarata dark cup down by ram nashirdum. Bumatamatic sele sapla buyaklashek used aile kadarbi la kamya pioala dinsta. Mahalinin choju dumya, banadoile basit shekalardamazlarta, misafili kzachotalardan mi lilerta. Kimdan baira march the gale jane, hangites in bona mendil veljani bilardum. Elim the ichicholta shekalemedolmush plastic torbam, hatchur mkoidum, chantam boinumda, ganimetem top leep eve gilirdm. Son ususgibe pide ikinjitur, annem babamna tekragidardan byram nashmaya. Kutchukutugi be misvard, annem babum emek de didine, dishina, turnanda, yokta mariti, hyatlerin, e kevi doras. And chokbalkon salardum, chunk so kawakarda. Sokaktoinema havalerigilinja yemek yar canbele bigzum the shardol or the chikma kitchin. Havalinasendizaman so kakaktoinemakin or dailerem o kusaris in the bitirdum ke heman so ka chikikapati m candem. Mahaledekiashitum kizala the hich anashamazdum, chok muzik chuk chirkef puludumoner. Oinoinakanin lobbi sebebtanhuzur suzuk chikartelard. Oizan bana yashutya the bandanku chukakik chochukariloinard m banda. Top kostrur bisiket schooturabinar, bibrims the yurishir ore bury tirmaner, physicsel orak daily danagibo or damburye koshtur. Tostopper kitchen neve don dumdan I nemembas kyafetu ugula masabashtat mishta. O kyafetali stedingiba orbal naltna yatar, kachan topo tekmelar, iste dimyarda yatbuar laner, istedimyardo tru kalkardum, diledimgi bikile nevilerdum, tek kural, eve girdim giboner chikarmakta. Bazagunarnekil dondusamart, an niming thehakapeshin the bins hoidunhatal. Hariashtan chojukenchyashtokakta, ma chikmasat devarda hai kisen. Mesala chojukaru gunorta sasadija. Komshlar balkon namizestener, paratar ek mikalundye bakalagon de mesala u Narasunda. Aksha mistohava sari nange genshnarva yashlar de inar the socka, chada klarwardi binaler inorasunda. Amjalve tesele rokadar sikwe uzn topplash maz dama, toplash tiklerna the yanlern dotru dinem sawardam. Mesela tarsus to beamjawarde on nan nathi kailer dinidi muak shamlera bailerdum. Enchuktahatiladum shahmera nikaes. Sor againstar colour the gejakaran kolunja. Onarde bizorku chekikailer anatirda. Ajkuk dani gumulu kemik derebenz jinardanu zailardambasedar lard. Da ikaldem to de ki apartman a tekbashmodone medimichin korkup, orbi abla lardan bire evedon e kadar beklardum banda berabardone bin mikin. Sormesala karya s no kutatilosunye dort giros de beklardum, a shimhalashirbora dan natumda, deniskenerdanas lokadar chukaria or yadia. Yard Mekushinli chekila mahalle yinaharikit denird. Mesela ustmahaled nashainambi uzunbaywada. Pazambakal dan ginsh Ambalash posheta lur lardwe kalawalchhailird. Ortukuwin lisayashkurunda kiaabi we abla lard the biscuchter ler no turdu no nresanak kaimakokada lanjidike Satanolikzakfalanda yoktu, poshetve tepsilaleklird. Enguzeli the tepsilakimak choksevardum, dumduzedar de kar, soda miski bikayardan. Oleishte, homechujuk choktu, kelangidan chokolurdu, chayagamelar, gunnar, mevlutlar, onarbunar da kan colok the harikat le male. Nedambiur men chokta ikivin yil na girdim zo yilba shigisakum the calmsh. Bis de toplanst, uchedador tie ladik. Ineta beheman e kai dolgibe tek kuchuk chojukuk bandum. Hakis choknishalita. Baza noptikushinurum yda band napyodum the shuniurum inan can the updum shel and hichpir's nat lemurum tekataladum, fim shridi gibsahni large chogosum nonandano, sofray, salon dopgulan, kom shulal la babam anime, echard odakirkurgulan ablame comshukazina. Bannapyodumichbimurum. Honorama nekalargusa mutubikajedye pundushuniorum. Television the sreki doniptor no millennium lafler ward, sankibizabihayergitter jek mishkiva. Baba mecklolonja shradaya knudalum de la sona tushindik. Zunishmu rum hotly murmuzul dum donjuke jam namshtamasan tushinioros de dan sono the other iftaler zyaret der gidil de gilindore, zyaret de inchhodas tambekin orodo. Samanabunerinda sikli de kazalda. Animina lay let shim the kalde komschdemzvarama, penance one eskimalem the sunr misenbashinda gitmishtum. Bika chayonjeshima guniran notiodum, negzalda bakomahalekultu, kalmodo cultu dia. Memlekete di miere, aslevimizosa, onasada jebikeregitik. Onda de eskimale goture medum, gostare med onabuidumal. 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